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3월 24일, 친절, 평행봉, Love yourself와 비버 피버 일상 everyday

+ 내가 친절한 이유는 사람이라는 존재에 대한 혐오 때문인거 같고 (안 빻은) 낯선이와의 교류를 즐기는건 어차피 내면 깊이 들어가면 혐오스러운 인간이지만 더 나은 존재가 되려고 노력하고 있는 상태에 대한 연민 때문인거 같다. 내 자신을 보는 시선도 동일. 혐오하는 존재에 대해 기대치가 높을 리가 없으니 사람에 실망하는 일이 없고, 안 빻은 사람들은 기본적으로 어제보다 나은 사람이 되는 것이 인생 목표 중 하나일 거라고 생각하는 모양.

+ 어제 일 마치고 와서 목과 허리가 너무 아파서 집에 도착하자마자 옷 갈아 입고 달리기 하러 나갔다. 달리기를 마치니 날이 어두워져 있었다. "런데이와 함께 4.52km를 38:00동안 08'14"의 평균 페이스로 운동을 마치셨습니다." 5주 마지막 날이었는데 런데이 음악에 약이라도 탄 건가 내가 (4분 달리기 + 2분 걷기) * 5회를 가뿐하게 하는 게 어떻게 가능하지?! 가뿐하게 달리고 평행봉에 도착해서 잠깐 거꾸로 매달려 있다가 평행봉 위로 올라가서 한강을 바라봤다. 더할나위 없이 행복했다.

+ 나는 왜 사는가, 대해 가끔 생각하지만 남 인생의 이유를 내가 고민하는 이유는 뭘까. 그만 하고 싶다.

+ 비버 피버...라는 말을 처음 들은 게 언제더라. 나 지금 인생 최초로 그 상태인 듯? <플리즈 라이크 미>에서 Justin Bieber의 'Love yourself>라는 노래가 나왔는데 너무 좋아서 잘 불러질 때까지 연습해야겠다!

For all the times that you rained on my parade
And all the clubs you get in using my name
You think you broke my heart, oh girl for goodness sake
You think I'm crying on my own, well I ain't

And I didn't wanna write a song cause I didn't want anyone thinking I still care
I don't but, you still hit my phone up
And baby I be movin' on and I think you should be somethin'
I don't wanna hold back, maybe you should know that
My mama don't like you and she likes everyone
And I never like to admit that I was wrong
And I've been so caught up in my job, didn't see what's going on
And now I know, I'm better sleeping on my own

Cause if you like the way you look that much
Oh baby you should go and love yourself
And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin'
You should go and love yourself

But when you told me that you hated my friends
The only problem was with you and not them
And every time you told me my opinion was wrong
And tried to make me forget where I came from

And I didn't wanna write a song cause I didn't want anyone thinking I still care
I don't but, you still hit my phone up
And baby I be movin' on and I think you should be somethin'
I don't wanna hold back, maybe you should know that
My mama don't like you and she likes everyone
And I never like to admit that I was wrong
And I've been so caught up in my job, didn't see what's going on
And now I know, I'm better sleeping on my own

Cause if you like the way you look that much
Oh baby you should go and love yourself
And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin'
You should go and love yourself

For all the times that you've made me feel small
I fell in love, now I fear nothin' at all
Had never felt so low when I was vulnerable
Was I a fool to let you break down my walls?

Cause if you like the way you look that much
Oh baby you should go and love yourself
And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin'
You should go and love yourself
Cause if you like the way you look that much
Oh baby you should go and love yourself
And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin'
You should go and love yourself



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